you say you know about the 50s/60s... well you can kiss my ass. you wish you knew. you use what i tell you. fuck you.

i really would like to move out and away. pronto.

and i love clay aiken. and im missing ryan seacrest. and i dont have time for those stupid things.

hola.i wish lisa would hurry and get out of school.i have to show he that ac pic. yeah. so anyways mikes friend walter said he knows me from gibbs and he sat with me at lunch but see the thing is i dont remember him. at all!and i mean i remember everyone i sat with at lunch. but oh well. mike and walter said theres something wrong with me and scott dating. because hes 14 and im 17 well i will be in less then a month. im cold. and tonight at 6 im watching ninja turtles.

oh yeah and i want to touch his hair. and bite it too. oh gosh. i love the movie footloose. yeah. and elvis. but everyone knows about that.

dads gf (sandra) is comming over for dinner. i hope she doesnt bring her kids. i talked to mom today. she didnt call me back last night because she was planting corn. hahaha. anyways... im gonna go watch ryan seacrest, he should be on any minute.<3

current mood: blah

i want this green chairpretty pretty faye.

i want this too

what the fuck!!

why is aaron kising this girl and drinking. im so mad at him!! lisa is gonna flip. and aaron looks like hes a bad kisser.

current mood: angry

omg i was just watching ryan seacrest and it showed him at wango tango and the backstreet boys were there and i heard a few secs of their new song.. omg nick carter omg omg omg...OMG!!! sry. and ryan was talking to nick about paris. i hate paris. with a passion. she stole my future husband and all of mine and lisas dreams of marrying nick and aaron. i remember when i first found out about nick and paris i called derek and cried to him and i remember he told me if nick already knew me wed be married. that was one of the best things anyone has ever said to me. its kinda stupid to you. well not to me........toodles. i have to finish watching ryan. i wish i couldve been at wango tango!!!

clay was on there too. he was wearing a green shirt lisa wouldve loved!!! i love clay. hes gonna let me wear his clothes.

current mood: excited

im for sure seriously over derek. really.. i am.....im gonna try my best to avoid him this summer......even tho im over him i think it would kill me to see him... sometimes i wish i could think up something really great and tell him off but he wouldnt care. it wouldnt hurt him. hes hurt me a lot. i wish i could make him feel how i feel. but he does make me happy too. ah i dont know. but i am over him.

....amd wed scott is comming over. finally i get to see my wonderful hott boyfriend who nvr hurts me is mean to me and who always wants me. and calls me.love ya!

current mood: sleepy

^my fave pic of him. its my background on my screen.

current mood: loved

oooOooOoOooo what a  badass

thanks to lisa for these.

current mood: amused

ah! im so stupid for bringing up stripping.

Halo14Sephiroth (12:51:04 AM): didnt you make it for him
Halo14Sephiroth (12:51:07 AM): ?
playXpinkXpopX (12:51:11 AM): haha yes
Halo14Sephiroth (12:51:15 AM): lol

it rained erlier and i didnt even know. i love the rain....i want to play in it with lisa this summer. itll be fun. i remember one night it was so cold out and we went outside and she poured her water on me so we had a water fight. and i remember when wed play hide and seek in the dark in her room.  and wed prank call everyone. we called this old man once and told him we were his gardaughters. haha he belived us too! we had him on the phone for so long. and when we were at my grampas and we called sean and sean 3wayes us and we prank called this one lady. this lady was crazy!!!! theres no way to explain it. you had to be there.

why is it always freezing... and jeremy is teaching me how to drive!!! and derek said i can drive his truck. but it has a shifter thingy and i dont know about that. i really hate when he had to shift a lot last time i saw him in dec. yeah anyways.. gotta pee. brb. k back. lisa why is pee yellow and not green? haha.

he knows how to make me feel bad doesnt he. even when i shouldnt feel bad.:(

id like to go.

current mood: sad

im gonna write clay aiken a letter... i have to put his address in here or else ill lose it.

Clay Aiken Fan Mail
PO Box 162
Pittsboro, NC 27312

man hes allergic to mushrooms. i love mushrooms. and cats and water. but hes scared of them. oh well. ill give up my kitten loving for clay. pft.  alos im not gonna write in here so much anymore. ill mostly just put pics in here i guess. i think dads gonna get me my won camera. we sorta talked about it. yay!!!